curcol :)

Aku cuma pengen cerita pengalaman hidup orang yang paling aku banggakan. Mungkin malam ini dia sedang duduk tersenyum melihat indahnya bintang yang selalu dapat bersinar dan tersenyum kepadanya, berkata kepada bulan kapan aku dapat selalu tersenyum sepertimu, kapan aku dapat menjadi seorang yang ikhlas menjadi sepertimu yang selalu ikhlas menerangi dunia yang gelap ini, dan kapan aku bisa menjadi seorang yang tetap bertanggung jawab sepertimu yang bisa selalu melaksanakan tugas mu, tak pernah tidur demi untuk menemani malam dunia nan gelap, dan tak pernah ingin menyerah begitu saja pada awan nan mendung, aku salut pada keindahan malam dan semua ciptaan Mu Ya Rabb. Dia adalah wanita yan di lahirkan di bumi kini bukan dari keluarga yang mewah sehingga ia harus bisa berdiri sendiri dengan segala kemampuan yang ia bias, dia juga anak yang selalu mengharap apa-apa yang berasal dari orang tuanya. Orang tuanya selalu mengajarkan bagaimana ia bias menjadi manusia yang bertanggung jawab, mencari uang dan bias menghidupi hidupnya sendiri sehingga dia bagaikan hidup pada orang lain, Ingin rasanya ku memeluknya ketika ia menangis bercerita tentang hidupnya.

Kehadiran laki-laki yang begitu ia cintai saya fikir akan membuat dia bahagia, namun aku salah. Dia selalu bercerita dan menangis bahwa dia memilih lelaki yang salah dan itu semua baru ia ketahui setelah dia hancur, aku ikut hancur katika mendengar itu semua. Dia tak mungkin lepas dari lelaki tersebut. Dan menyerahkan semua yang tidak mungkin diberikan kepada lelaki lain. Aku hanya dapat berkata, sabarr sayangg semoga dia memang yang terakhir untuk kamu dan dia dapat merubah sifatnya.

Tak selamanya semua yang berawal buruk akan berujung buruk pula teman. Aku akan selalu dini, di sampingmu menjagamu dan terus akan mengabarkan padamu bahwa semua dapat di perbaiki ,termasuk memperbaiki kesalahanmu pada Tuhan, Allah maha pengampun, Taubat Nasuha obatnya sayangg. Aku tetap adadisini hingga kau menghembuskan nafas terakhirmu, sampai kapan pun kau yang terhebat kau yang akan aku bangga kan selalu, aku yakin kita satu aku. Kita akan jalani semua bersama ,sahabat :)

My journal

One more for my writing journal. Lecturer I asked my 12 for journal writing. While I no longer knew what to write on this text. This morning I studied translation for the short term then i went home to rest, after my shower late morning and midday prayer and changed my clothes for work, I went to work and arrived at my workplace, my activities as usual. After that I was thinking how I finish writing this journal, because I've run out of material and I do not know what to write and tell me power. I try to keep typing what I think about this. at 4 pm I should be home from work soon, tomorrow is a holiday and I do not work, I keep writing this until now I stopped and could not write this journal again.

But I think its very little to posting in my blog, I try to continue this journal until I can think again. I hope after I finished my writing task and after I make this blog, I hope My lecture give me A for my score. Thanks sir :)

Driving

            When my father bought a car, I feel happy because I thought I could use it. But I can not drive a car so I had to learn. My parents suggested that courses in the course car, but I do not want to because I have friends who can teach me driving.
She name's is Fira friend of my classes in English language department, in the afternoon I called Fira to come to my house and taught me to drive, and he was willing. Moments later she came to my house and we went to the MTQ to learn, arrived at the MTQ Fira directing the gas, brake, teeth, and clutch. I am a bit hard to understand because the bar at that time I learned to drive. But Fira taught patiently, and finally I understood, then I learned to walk slowly Fira advised me not to step on the gas too strong. I followed her words and when I started a bit I can learn to replace teeth and controlling the clutch, brake and steering wheel, it's a very difficult thing. I almost gave up but Fira still teaches me patiently.
        After a week I finally learned to drive I can and I've dared to bring his own car everywhere, it's all thanks to Fira and persistence I learned, thanks Fira :)

my dream

When the time I graduated from senior high school I want to register go to school police woman, but my parents did not support me to enter college. But my own trying to register on Poltabes that time, all materials are complete, I prepare a week before the closing of registration. At the time I came to Poltabes to register and collect the material, after a long wait for my name called and turns out I did not pass the material because at that age I was approximately 3 months to 17 years. I am very disappointed and as promised my parents that I would follow their will if I do not pass the test.

Then my parents enrolled me at Edinburgh University in the Joint Entrance Examination (UMB), but I did not graduate and I graduated in SNMPTN English department. I do not quite master the English language, I do not know if I will pass the test. Even before I was promised when I signed my English department will use the veil. And in fact I graduated so I have to wear the veil to the present. I do not feel compelled to wear the veil, because I realized how important close our body, a man will be reluctant to us, they will appreciate more and be more polite to us, a normal man would be attracted to women who show off the beauty of her body, first they would just look, for faith is not strong , there will be a feeling of wanting to touch the woman, woman wear veil was beautiful, pure, cool and very proud to see veiled women. Woman who wear veil are receiving guidance from Allah, none of the ruling that could flip reverse heart except Allah, pray for those who have not covered, so that they can be of guidance from God. Actually women compulsory wear a veil.

my birthday

          When I was ten years old, In my birthday my parents invited my friends. At the time I in elementary school. They invited all of my parents in my class and several friendships and my neighbors. The party on Sunday 1.00 pm. I feel so nervous because I will can be queen of the day. Finally, at the Sunday my parents and some people busy to prepared for my party. They make some food and drink, decorated my house, and prepared my cake for my birthday. After finished, my friend one by one came to my house. I must prepared my body. I take a bath, wear my dress ,make up my face and finally I looks beautiful. My mother proud with me because now I looks great already.

          At the time for started my party, host start from bismillah,  and as other party my party success and I am so happy. From my parents I got special gift, from my friends I got many gifts. My friendship gave me Winnie the Pooh bear. Since gift from my friend I am so like a Winnie the Pooh bear. My party finished, all feel beautiful moment. I remember that until now. I get so many gifts. 

My old friends

When I was child I have two best friends. I was born I kuala tungkal and live there with my parents till I in elementary school. My first best friend is Rini, She is a beautiful girl, she has white skin, frizz hair, sharp nose, friendly and she is a calm girl. She was born in 1991, She older I year than me. She can gave me good attitude and she is a good personality, and the second my best friends is Erna. She is a beautiful girl, she has a brown skin, flat nose, straight hair and she youngest than rini and I.

            When we child we often played in my fishpond behind my house. But at the day when we played, Erna falls into my fishpond. Rini and I can’t do anything because at the time we really youngest. Fortunately, my mother called me and saw that Erna in fishpond. My mother helped Erna, Erna can’t breath well. My mom pushes her stomach and Erna issue the water from her mouth and finally Erna conscious. Rini and I really afraid if her parents angry with us, but when we usher Erna go home her parents just said that we not allowed played around fishpond. And we promised that will not repeat again. But now we never meet after Rini and I finished from elementary school. Rini moved to Tasikmalaya with her family and now she has husband and daughter and Erna now has job in Tungkal and I just sometimes meet her. Rini ever give me letter from Tasikmalaya and just once. I missing her, I know she is a good personality. If I can, I want go to Tasikmalaya to meet her.

            Friendships never change whenever, wherever and till I can’t breath. They always near me when I need and always give me support if I get the problem. We very old friend and we really comfortable one each other. Anything together, starts from take a bath, eat, play, go to school till sleep together. I hope that one day I can meet them.            

happy person

In this world we have someone special or some times the special objects. For me in this world I have several special people. But first is mother is someone who makes me here in this world besides my father and first is God. Mother is someone who never tired caring me, protective me, and always here in my heart. I don’t know if without  my mom maybe I can’t stand alone, I need someone who angry with me if I’m wrong, I need someone to teach me about this live, religion and about knowledge and really I can’t without my parents. Every morning always cook to my breakfast, clean the house, and sometimes washing clothes. Sometimes when I have free time, I help my mother.

The second is my father. Alhamdulillah, I have father be responsible with his family, and give the best for family. Actually my father has 40 years old and for me he is young and sometimes he can’t control his ego, but I understand its effect from his age. Very much temptation in my family but God still care with us and every temptation have solution.

The last is my best friends and my boyfriend. They are people who always support me when I get the problem. Because them, I can calm and sometimes they give me solution. Above they are peoples can make me not give up, lucky I have them. Actually God will give the best person for us, and God can change the wicked people for us. I believe that  :)